Tenya x Sakuya!
Monday, August 5, 2002
11:13 a.m.

Wow!!Am I misinformed or what??. Muscat was only 3 days!!!. *grumbles* Anyway, I got back today, and guess what I found!!My cpu was back!!. And my CD-writer STILL wasn't fixed. But know what was THERE?*grins* A goodness to life DSL modem!!!I now have a DSL permanent connection! Whee!!!!!!!!!!

Download heaven,here I come. Not to say I'm not free though, with school drawing closer, I have to start classes and man it'll take up most of my morning time. But Celebrate and rejoice!!*grins*..

Went to Wonderland with my cousins and nearly broke my neck on the Space Shooter. Sheesh..then there was that crazy ring of Fire which I absoltely refused to sit on. I CANNOT sit on a ride that'll have my blood clogging my forehead!!. Anyway, hope I can see you guys around. Till 25th of August though, I'm gonna be knee-deep in work and family..gomen..

Until then, Take care, love y'all!!

-Shahnida

In the Moonlight
Thursday, August 1, 2002
09:14 a.m.

Well people, it's time for me to leave. Holidaying with my cousins, working..it's gonna take up a lot of my time, and I wont have the net for a bit either. So ..let's hope my dad gets off his grumpy ass and gets my computer fixed by the time I return. Farah's so lucky, she got a DSL connection. Oh, and which one of you haven't done my friendtest? The link's here--

Shahnida's Friend Test

I think. Try it out..and i'll see you all soon!! Love you!! -Shahnida

In the Moonlight
Sunday, July 28, 2002
09:00 a.m.

Okay,sorry for the huge delay in posting, but I couldn't help it!!The connection I'm using is hell too expensive!!. Dad was soooo pissed,mind you.

I wish he just stopped acting so nasty and just GOT me a net connection, what is DSL too hard to get?!?!

Okay..Fanfiction.net is back functioning, but..why aren't they putting up a Psychic Force section like I begged them to?? That game is heaven!!H-E-A-V-E-N!!!*sigh*..

Anyway,if the above pics dont appear, it's likely because my site doesn't allow hotlinking. Try and opening them in another window by copying and pasting the URL but,who has time for that?..Sheesh.. unless someone is nice enough to offer me hotlinking from their servers for free, I'm stuck, because.. I've got limited funds at the mo..

Anyway, see you all soon. Hopefully my site design for my under construction KxHiro site will be acceptable...

-Shahnida

::Red and Black::
Sunday, July 21, 2002
07:51 a.m.

YAHOO is such a damned B****!!!. God, I end up screaming that once in a while. *chuckles*Right now, though,I'm ready to smash that server in. For crying out loud, why wont the stupid images show up?!
How annoying.

ANYWAY, I have some sketches done for that samurai yaoi..the first two characters..I wonder what's stopping me from scanning the kind-of villian, but.. check them out. They aren't inked right now, working takes up nearly half my life during vacation..but I'm successfully drawing the story!^_^Yay!

So I present..Beautiful General Mira Sakuya, Dark and Sexy Honoukawa no Tenya,Who captures the heart of the lovely General and gives him his own.. Tenya,Sakuya and Sakuya's little Disciple Kazuki,sharing a quiet moment. Oooh, is Tenya ogling Sakuya's legs?^_^;;, and last but not least.. Tenya-in a Sadistic Situation..^_^

... naturally, I'm sure it can be very well told that this is going to involve angst. *sigh*pretty boys have to suffer for their beauty. *smirk*Okay, stop complaining about how Sakuya doesn't look a thing like a General. *blows a raspberry*

So with these happy moments, I depart for now...

*grins and bows*

-Shahnida

::Red and Black::
Friday, July 19, 2002
08:15 a.m.

I can't believe I did this.. I actually worked on a layout!!!. God almighty, am I hopeless or am I hopeless? Don't laugh.

Went to watch "Devdas" on Wednesday, and I couldn't stop blabbing about it to all my online buddies!!. Kinda hard to explain it to a western audience, but hell, it's so superb. Then, I started drawing out that roleplay my onii-chan Sephy and I were doing set in ancient Japan. The character designs came out really well..I still have to work on Tosha though. And I have to remember to ask onii-chan for last names, since he created Tenya and Tosha!!!.

I have this obsession, I have to have ONE person with the name "Sakuya" in anything I draw/roleplay. It's become tradition. My love for Kaikan Phrase's Sakuya may be the reason. I really never thought I'd love him, but one day, something just snapped in me and screamed, "FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, Who CARES if he has a girlfriend and he's sleeping with her half his lifetime???You love him, admit it!!"

That also broke my tradition of not liking main characters. *chuckles* The next one was Sanzo. Who doesn't love Sanzo!?. Okay, I know a lot of people who hate him like a bad cough, and some like him as much as they like their teeth pulled out without anesthetic, but for crying out loud, the guy has continuity!!!

He doesn't go through stupid changes influenced by a second party... but after Requiem, I think the bitchiness just went overboard. Yuki Eiri is like a mirror of him, except he begins to show emotion and open up, but Sanzo DOESN'T!!WHAT A TOTAL BYATCH!*gets huge shiawase bubles behind her and glowing bubbly eyes* my hero....

I think I'll shut up now.

-Shahnida

::Red and Black::
Sunday, July 14, 2002
07:50 a.m.

Just how miserable can someone get!? First ..ahh..hell,this should be good news..I got my stolen discman back! This was..on Thursday. *grumbles*

Oh, and for those of you who thought I was rude.. forgive me. This week hasn't been the best of times for me. I just had to say that..

Hope you all had a nice weekend!

-Shahnida

::Red and Black::
Thursday, July 11, 2002
12:43 a.m.

...Have I ever mentioned I HATE kids???? Here I am ,working my ass off in a beauty saloon during summer vacation ...worst thing being it's my MOM's place and I can't say no to her since I'm such a good girl..

*grumbles* Another Thursday.. Thursday's the worst day of the week for me. Where I am, it's weekend time. Weekend time means party time. Party time means we get clients with nothing better to do but to come and get their faces painted. I don't hate makeup as much as i used to when I was younger..but I'd prefer not doing a service. Why can't I be an animator...why...just one more frickin' year of school, then I'm outta here..

Today, while I was doing makeup for a nice lady who wanted to go for a wedding..I kept on getting.. *politely*"FREAKIN INTERRUPTED BY THAT BALL OF SHIT SHE CALLED A DAUGHTER!!!!*"

*grumbles* I was doing my work, the lady was nice and her face was easy to work on, so I was doing her makeup.. and her friggin' 4 year old daughter kept ON jumping into her lap and pissing the hell out of me!!!.
"Mommy, I wanna do makeup too, Mommy pleeeeease?" she kept wailing, and I could literally feel my nerves pounding. It was distracting and the poor lady wasn't even doing anything to stop her!!. What could she do??. Then that bitch (the daughter) kept on trying to steal my makeup brushes and lipsticks off the table and nicely used the eyeliner brush on the lipstick!!.

I was so ready to scream. But I couldn't say anything to her, after all, she was a customer.. a savior came in the form of that girl's aunt and she scolded her. I was just about done with the mother's makeup when the girl screamed and began to cry. God, I wanted to smash a vase over her head!!!. But know what I did?? I bent over and scooped the child in my arms.. then I hugged her tight and whispered,"It's alright. Dont cry. I'm going to make you look like a little doll.". And she hugged me back and smiled through her tears.

I seem to have a way with children. She sat nicely and I ended up putting a little pink lip gloss on her and a smear of pink eyeshadow over her little eyes.. and a touch of peach blush.
She did look like a doll.
After that, her mom paid and smiled at me, thanking me for all my effort..
And handed me a nice 30 Dirham tip. (Close to around 10 dollars)
*smiles and shakes her head* I really hate kids. -Shahnida

::Red and Black::
Thursday, July 11, 2002
12:38 a.m.

:: K and Nagano Hiiroshi:: Why should THEY be together??

Why NOT!?*looks affronted then grins* Because I'm a yaoi fan?..Is that good enough??* ducks before the flying tomatoes and sharp thingys hit her* Alright, alright..here's the rant.. don't like it, I'm not to blame. Free world, free speech..*mutters* I can't believe I'm getting myself worked up over characters who aren't real.

::K and Hiiro-- the Solid Proof::

*cracks her knuckles* Yosh!! I've been waiting to get this off my chest now. *evil grin*

K ..(or Claude K Winchester, as known by his dear wife Judy) and our sweet guitarist, Nakano Hiiroshi. Ahh, first thing's first. K has a wife, why will he be with Hiiro?. *chuckles* there's a limit to long distance relationships..okay, just joking!!!. But come on, the only thing of Judy in the anime was the cute little doll of her hanging underneath the rearview window of K's car.. I can pretend..........*evil snicker*....and I can conveniently ignore her since I haven't read the whole manga yet. (But, OH, Michael-chan is SOOOOOOOOOooooooo kawaiiiii!!!!!)

*cough* where was I?. Yeah.. I'm putting forward teensy points , those nicely tiny overlooked ones that only those people who wear the yaoi-tinted glasses see. ^_~ You don't have to agree. I'm just saying them for the fun and satisfaction of saying them. It makes me feel good..*grins*And who knows..they may turn into proof later..

K and Hiiro....are so obviously excellent for each other. I'm taking points from the anime for now since I dont have all the manga..I'll hopefully be getting them soon. Anyway.. watch the anime to discover who you think Hiiro goes best with...and NOT Ayaka. I'm asking for yaoi here. Possible pairings could be... Hiiro with Sakano, Hiiro with Eiri and Hiiro with K..and for you Shuuichi fans, Hiiro with him, definitely, but that's not for me so I'm not going to talk about it.

Why do I say Hiiro with K in such formidable passion..?*grins* Firstly, I noticed STRONG, if not absolutely obvious hints that K seemed to be ogling Hiiro whenever he got the chance. Despite Hiiro being with Shuuichi for nearly 3/4ths of the series, manga and anime likewise, did anyone fail to notice that more often than not, Hiiro and K were getting a lot of screen time together?!. I'M SURE I WASN'T THE ONLY ONE!!!!*pants*

Then.. if that wasn't enough..Maki Murakami-san has made THREE Remix doujinshii including that very pairing!! Whaddya make of that?!!? If the CREATOR is hinting so heavilly on that pairing, then I'm not arguing!!!. (And if she's stressing on Ayaka and Hiiro, I'll promptly put myself on ignore. Tee-hee...). Heck, I'd even go out of my way to screencap and upload all those pics from the anime where I could have absolutely SWORN Hiiro and K were up to something offscreen..*evil fangirl laugh* I'm so hopeless!!. And damn proud of it too.

It's not that I don't LIKE straight pairings.. Ofcourse I do, but there are very few and I'd rather stick to my yaoi. I've never found any problems with K and Judy..but come ON, being a shonen-ai anime, I'd rather see my share of the delicious fan service!!. Then there's K and Ark, which was absolutely *adorable* but we're not talking about that right now.. And if Jusy decides to divorce K anytime soon so she can go off with Ark, I really wont mind. As long as she leaves Michael to K, and Hiiro being the nice boy he is decides to play mommy.. *evil snicker*

I guess that's about it. BOY this was LONG!. If I come up wih more points, I'll be sure to put them up here. Anyway, take care for now!

-Shahnida

::Red and Black::
Tuesday, July 9, 2002
08:20 a.m.

Hiiiiiiiiii Minna!!! Yesterday was absolutely fun.. I got to watch the whole Gravitation series again with my best friends and my love for Hiiro and K was revived!!. I don't know why people haven't noticed that pairing yet!!..so far, only one fic exists on the net for them.. I'm hoping I can spread the word on how *delicious* a scandal with the manager would sound. Are you listening, yaoi fangirls?? K and Hiiro is THERE!!

*coughs* This post... will point out reasons on WHY Ayaka and Hiro are not actually together, it's a big hoax. NO, I do not like Hiro with Shuichi, I value their friendship and I hope it stays that way. No, really. I just dont want to see yaoi with them both in it (Although Remix issue no.3 was VERY nice.. but i think it's because K was dressed in a kimono at the end and Hiro just looked damn beautiful, whee!)

And I'm a KxHiiro supporter!!! HEAR THAT, WORLD?!!?!?. *giggles*

Reasons why Ayaka and Hiiro are not actually together, and why K and Hiiro ARE but it's kept under wraps...

::Ayaka and Hiiro, the Blatant truth::
Hiiro's a very nice boy. His personality cannot be told immediately, but this is the first thing you notice, that he's a very nice boy and is very protective. He values his friendship with Shuuichi and can feel for his best friend when he's in pain. Noticing that Ayaka-chan was not making it very easy for Eiri and Shuuichi's relationship to progress, Hiiro offered himself as a kagenie..er..gomen, too much X.. sacrifice, I mean. He'd strike up a friendship with Ayaka-chan to get rid of her feelings for Eiri so Shuuichi can have him completely.

Being the absolutely polite boy that he is, he's naturally nice to her. He's nice to Shuuichi for crying out loud, I wanted to slap him in Track 10 of the anime!!!. But Shuuichi, I can bear a lot more than Ayaka. I can't believe I'm putting this so delicately. Anyway, the only reason he's "going out" with Ayaka-chan is because, she's an obstruction to his best friend's relationship!!!!. And for crying out loud.. they haven't even held hands!!. Okay, so Hiiro may have put his arm around her in the anime ONCE.......... but K's walking around with Hiiro more than 6 times together, in the same screen!!You wonder WHY..*evil grin* Notice the desperation here?

And Hiiro says himself that Ayaka still likes Eiri. He's just very polite. And he's awfully nice and sensitive, and adorable!!!. *drools over coochie Hiiroshi-kun*

..hm..returning to Bad Luck after Ayaka says she'll date him after a million records sell?. One word. FRIENDLY. Hiiro's a very friendly boy. I have to keep stressing this here. Whatever works to keep her away from his best friend. I'm sure Hiiro would be nice to me too if I was nice to him and friendly, which is how Ayaka-chan is with him--isn't that human? You cant call that love!!. Not yet anyway!!.. NO, it can never be Hiiro and Ayaka-chan!! friendship is more valuable, that's final!!...*shuts up* *grins*I'm so biased and this may sound idiotic, but whatever works to keep her away atleast in my eyes. You don't have to like what I'm saying. *blows a raspberry*Yaoi rules.

I would have liked Ayaka had she looked a bit human... acting so desperate and sad so people feel sorry for her, the Uesugi family's own Maki is married to Tohma, Judy is married to K and I'm not jealous of them--because the girls have personalities!!!. Ayaka-chan does NOT!!!. She's a mistake!! I really would not have minded her had she been worked on a little more to be made better!. First thing for her, get rid of that horrible dress sense!!!.

So..in conclusion to this rant, I am NOT going to support Hiiro and Ayaka-chan being a couple. Come on, you dont fall in love with all your male friends, do you?. And friendship is fine, because Hiiro is a sweet person as a friend as well!!!. Hiiro's worth falling in love with, but I just hope this silly relationship doesn't develop into something even more ugly like ..*shudders* .. Miaka and Tamahome..

[End rant]

::Red and Black::
Sunday, July 7, 2002
09:22 a.m.

Okay, today was relatively good.. I miss my stolen discman, but..*sigh*life goes on. Dad'll buy me a new one soon. How is everything? I still have to work on a layout for this crappy page.. no black bgs!! Annoying.. Oh, my oniichan sent me this KEWL page, and these were the results.. without me cheating!^_^ Blah.. Enjoy life people!^_^

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